what

a semi public notebook
a proof of life
a museum of self
under construction
with hallways and mirrors
in impermanence
unfinished
imperfect
alive

why

to share, to be known, to process, deepen, collect myself in incoherence, record, a way to feel pretty, prolific, free, connecting the dots, hiding behind volume, distillation, expansion, distance, to step away and come back, to give what I’ve been given, to romanticize my mundane existence, so you get lost in me, so that you know I was here

why you noticed the lyrics of folk songs
and carried around instant film
why you lived a life worth remembering
in a notebook on the window sill *

who

a nonbinary trans woman
a child of indian immigrants
a deeply unserious person
a moth destructively drawn to the flame

i am the universe lost in the universe *
i am a work of art coming alive *
i am the image of love incarnate *
i am cause and effect addicted to change *